Statement of Faith

As a person whose faith has changed her life for the better, I do feel it necessary to elaborate on my faith -- because it not only inspires me and keeps me going, it is the main force that keeps me going in life.

I am what they call a Christian. I believe in God, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit, that Jesus was born of the virgin Mary, suffered and died for our sins, was buried and rose again. I believe he is alive still, and sits on the right hand of the Father, and someday he will come back to judge the living and the dead. I believe in the forgiveness of sins and the life everlasting. I have a relationship with Christ, and I believe I'll go to heaven and live with Him in a timeline outside time when I die.

However.

Just because I am a Christian does not mean that I am right and that you are wrong.

It does not mean that you are less of a person in my eyes if you are not Christian, that I will ignore you, that I will be closed off to your own set of beliefs. Also, just because I am a Christian does not mean that my characters will be; that my characters will mess up, do some pretty horrible things, even spit in my Father's face and I should not be punished, shunned, or otherwise scorned for their actions because I am not them. I created them, yes. I will write them doing these horrible actions. But I am not Ryle Spangler, Matthew Kraft, Haruna Yukishiro, or any of my other characters. There is a difference. You should not assume that I am a murderer, a liar, a thief, or gay because my characters sometimes are, depending on the character.

I refuse to hold myself to some 'higher standard' because it looks good on the outside. I am who I am. I know I am not my sin, and patience is requested, but also forgiveness. Forgiveness is what halts arguments, and sometimes even wars. I believe that someday, if God wills it, He will make me as perfect as He wills. That is when I'm dead. It's impossible to be perfect before I'm dead, because this world is not perfect.

My beliefs are my own. I am a Christian, but that does not mean that my life is cookie-cutter or easy. My version of Christianity -- if it can even really be called that -- is most likely a lot different than your own. I am highly open to interpretation. I read the Bible, yes, but I'm not going to shove it in your face unless you want me to. There will be times where I definitely will not seem like a Christian. To me, that's okay. To hold myself to an impossible standard of picture-perfect God-like reflection is not only impossible, it kills off my self-confidence and self-being. God is God; we are his imperfect people. Instead of trying to fix what we bungled millennia ago, I've just decided to let it go. God knows what he's doing. I sometimes get messy just because I can. A lot of people -- a lot of Christians -- don't understand this. I often let myself be sad, mad, angry, frustrated, disappointed, mournful, just because I can.

In short, I'm an artist. Proceed with caution.

If you have a problem with anything I've written here, feel free to message me about it. Posting about it online, somewhere where it will cause drama, is not messaging me about it.